A start...

So when I decided I wanted to blog I had a specific plan. I wanted my first blog to be very deep and insightful about something but being me... I got sidetracked and never wrote what I wanted to write so instead this blog is going to start about me. It's been a pretty rough couple months with some extreme ups and downs. I'm smack in the middle of one of those life changing moments I think. I'm being stretched as a person and slowly learning what is really important to me. I wish I had the time, energy or courage to go into what I've been through and what it's taught me specifically but I don't really. I do know that I've learned some very specific things...

First things first. Don't get caught up in the drama of today. It's simply not important. When you mess up, just remember... Tomorrow there will be new drama and your mistake will be old news. Today, This week, or this month is simply not going to be the end of the road for you. Think back to high school... Did that chem test really affect anything that is going on in your life right now? Remember the big picture and keep your head up. I know it's hard. Trust me. I'm with you! Don't be so concerned with making college "the best years of your life"... Just make each moment the best it can be. When things fall apart, and they will... Pick up the pieces and keep going.

Next. Never walk away from a friendship. Fight. I'm a fighter to my core. I will fight for my friends until the end. I have never walked away from a friendship and never plan to. I have seen time and time again that there is a problem and someone simply walks away. I dont understand how people can do this. I've had a particularly hard time with this one. Noone cares to talk it out or work it out. Just walk away as if what you had never mattered. It literally hurts me to see the "keep the bad but forget the good" mentality. I have cried far too many nights over people like this... On an opposite note but equally important. Keep an open heart. When it's all said and done. Take them back. Don't push them away. Fight. You will always regret it if you don't...

Take the risk. Always always always. This is going to sound funny coming from anyone who knows my life right now because I took the risk and I lost a friend but I can't regret my decision because it reopened my heart. I had closed myself off and forgotten what it was like to be playful. I realized that I can let someone else hug me and brighten my day or look at me and let my heart melt. I know that just because they have that power doesn't mean you have to push them away. I would have always regretted not giving it a shot if I had walked away in the beginning...

Take a million pictures. I'm not just saying this because I am a photo major. If you only knew how often having a picture from something has brightened my day you'd be amazed. Whether it's a friendship that distanced, a forgotten memory, or a night you never want to forget. Having the pictures is amazing.

Don't be afraid to go to God when you've tried it on your own far too long. Look, walk, or run to him... He will be there with open arms and a love that fixes everything. Remember that you can't do anything your own but you can do anything with Him!!

The truth is growing up, life, college... Just isn't what it's cracked up to be... In fact growing up sucks. It's quite true that not all kisses are not magic and more often than not boys will not live up to their expectations.You will lose friendships you never thought you would. You will cry and scream and feel like your whole world is falling apart. You will lose sight of your dreams and that person you never thought would let you down.. will. Your heart will be broken and you'll probably break a few hearts too... But in the end... It's all worth it. So let go of the past... You have a bright future ahead of you. Take the time to do it all... Take too many pictures, laugh, love, take chances, tell the truth, be random, sing out loud, apologize, and most importantly don't let a day go by where you don't tell your freinds, family, and loves how you feel.